Monday I Guess

Monday I Guess

It’s later in the day than when I usually have been doing these but oh well at least I’m doing it now. Got reassured that while I am behind in credits it won’t affect me quite yet so it’s something for future Nova to deal with. I’m still looking into getting treatment for my memory “blackouts” I’ve been having though the process is slow moving.

I’m starting to think, though I haven’t mentioned it publicly, that it may be some form of DID since friends and family have told me they recount me doing things that seem out of character for me and I have messages that I’ve sent to people that are not something I remember doing. Along with this I have thoughts I feel are not my own but I for the longest time just wrote them off as intrusive thoughts. However since around last summer these thoughts have become less intrusive and just more commentary on my actions… if that makes sense? I just hope that whatever this is I get it figured out soon so I can figure out how to live with it.